Today (Monday)!!!

So, I weighed today at 252 lbs. I lost one more pound.  I really shouldn't be discouraged but it is hard not to be.  I took my ring in this weekend to have it cleaned and sized it went from a size 9 to a 7 1/2.  Hmm, maybe I am getting smaller. 

As a big girl, I have had well intentioned friends in my life that lie.  Have you ever had that experience?  Yes, friends lie, shocking isn't it?  But does it really count as a lie if they are trying to spare your feelings?  HECK YES!!!  So you want an example huh?  Okay here goes.  I have this one friend who we will call Dolly.  One day I was pouring out my heart to Dolly about being overweight and the feelings I associated with this condition...okay enough beating around the bush, I was telling Dolly how much I hated being FAT!  My dear friend "Dolly" looked at me and said, "oh, Kesha, you're not fat".  Well intentioned, good hearted....liar!  I was insulted!  Of course I am fat, does she think I am blind and stupid too?  Really why do we do things like that?  I mean I CAN see and my doctor tells me every chance he gets how I need to lose weight, would he do so if I weren't fat?  I think not!  So we lie to make people feel better about themselves, all the while we leave them in the condition that is so unsatisfying to them, and in my case, dangerous to my health (physical and mental).  A pastor once said, "ladies, don't put your husbands in the position where they have to lie"  it makes me think of the honest abe commercial where his wife asks him if her dress makes her look fat, he struggles to answer without lying, but he is consumed with guilt about the truth.  Why are people uncomfortable when I say I am fat?  It is the truth.  Is it the truth that makes them uncomfortable or the preconceptions that society has formed concerning people who are fat, such as, lazy, stupid, non motivated, uneducated, dirty, and without self control?   I have had doctor's in the past that did everything possible to keep from touching me, as if, fat was contagious!  Listen up people!  Fat is not contagious, unless you choose it to be!  Don't lie to make me feel better, because it doesn't work!  I can convince myself that I am a size 6 but when I try to put on a size 6 it ain't happening!  Be bold, be kind, tell the truth, and help me change my life instead of enabling me to stay in the same miserable condition.  Who knows, if someone had told the truth many years ago, my self deception may have not worked and I would not have gotten to this point.  Love me enough to be honest even if it does hurt.  Love hurts!  But fat kills!  Don't weight until it's too late.  See ya next time.