STRESS!

Today is a total STRESS day.  I cannot stress to you the level of stress I am feeling today, and probably a little anxiety as well.  I weighed today at 239 lbs.  That's a total loss of 49lbs!  Woo Hoo!  But I am having a major emotional crisis in my personal life today and I am not handling it well!  I have reverted to old habits today and have stress-ate!  As a matter of fact I am doing it now, yes right now, as I write on my blog about losing weight I am eating a Krystal, ok I am eating 2 Krystals!  How do I feel about it...justified...disgusted...overfull...and yes still STRESSED and a little anxious as well.  I had a piece of baby shower cake earlier, I didn't eat the icing but the cake was great!  I also had two (small) bags of chips!  I promise I have totally went off the deep end today!!!!  And guess what...it has not helped!!!  I have just proven to myself if no one else that food is not a stress reliever! If anything it has made me feel more stressed because now I have to worry about working off the extra calories. And I have to be honest on here with you guys so I have to consider how my breakdown will affect you!  Well, I know you have all been in this position before so I am just going to get over it, finish this long mentally exhausting day, go to bed and start fresh tomorrow.  Today, life will weight, tomorrow, life will start again!!