Day 6

Well, I didn't write yesterday because we had a crisis at work and I was dealing with that.  Today I got up, got ready, and put on my shoes.  Surprise!  They are too big now!  Tell me ladies, why do women lose weight in places they don't necessarily want to first?  I mean, I can barely keep my wedding ring on my finger, I had to buy a smaller size bra (both cup and size), and now my shoes are sliding off when I walk!  Come on now, I have plenty to get rid of in my hips, thighs, belly and butt, BODY!  TAKE THAT FIRST!!!  Too bad we can't designate areas that need to go, "brain, today I want you to take fat from my butt, leave my hands alone!"  Unfortunately it doesn't work that way and now I have these nice slim hands, feet and smaller boobs and a GREAT BIG BUTT!!!  The unfairness of this situation has not escaped me.  Makes me want to throw myself in the floor, kick, scream and bang my head like I did when I was little.  I don't think my boss would understand if she walked in on that! 
I weighed today at 263 lbs.  A major milestone, 25 lbs gone!!!  I am very excited ( as my shoe slides off and trips me!).  I have been disappointed about the speed of weight lose over the last month, but since I have reached this milestone today I felt better.  I came to work and decided to make my office a "safe zone".  I got all of my stash (candy) and gave it to my co-workers.  The only food left in my desk are 100 calorie packs!  Great strides!!!  Then the only foster child on my caseload came in...selling donuts!  Krispy Kreme does not play fair!!!  I bought two boxes but refused to take them, yeah for me I am a good girl!  Then my co-workers came in my office and tried to "share" the donuts they had purchased.  Everywhere I turn there are saboteurs!!!  And believe me I am not strong enough to resist them all.  However, I employed my "will power" which is a real joke.  I don't need will power, will is not the problem.  I need won't power!!  I did not take a donut and I feel great about it!!!  So today, as I leave the office to go to the juvenile court for a very important event, I will be saying to my co-workers, "weight on me", not just because I am slow, but because weight is coming off and so are my shoes!!!!  Have a great day!